a new blog...

i dont know why im doing this but ive decided to start a blog. im aware that no one will read this but ill blog anyway. 

this week i barely attended college and i am probably on the verge of being kicked out. that will be three years down the drain.... i just dont see the point in being there anymore. 

i kind of feel like saturday wasnt what i had expected. i thought maybe if i changed by not drinking so much that other things would change, but they didnt. i just felt like a deflated balloon once i had finally got home at 4 in the morning.

however, saturday wasnt completely useless i did get to talk to my twitter friend ben for (what i consider to be) the first time face to face. it was nice to talk to someone who i dont see all the time. what wasnt so great about that was being accused of coming on to him after i had spoken to him, it made me feel like someone who i thought was my friend didnt know me at all. 

ella and i managed to lose andrea's sister. i dont know how you can lose a whole person. i usually lose keys, cashcards and my balance on a night out. i hope shes okay.

it was nice that i made things up with rory, after months of hating each other we reconciled at revolver. at least parites and things wont be so difficult when we're both there now. 

the 'schnapps party' on the coach on the way back was so strange. drinking straight schnapps then being came on to by someone who i thought was my friend wasnt what i wanted at all.

this week should be boring. ive got nothing going on. as of yet.

hopefully ill be able to arrange another day to go for a run with paris and boj because regradless of being completely shattered after. it was good to get out and do something i dont usually do.

thats it. im done rambling on.